2009.11.11 Now I Can Hear You

Today was my schedule for pregnancy monthly check up at the family practice,
this week is my 14th week of pregnancy, cannot believe that time runs so fast,
when I visited the doctor for the first time by the end of September,
we found out that I was 4 weeks pregnant,
and now it's been 10 weeks...wow!!

I've been really anxious this week about the doctor visit,
and truly wish that we would be able to hear the baby's heart beat...
I remember that the doctor can't find the baby's heartbeat last month because the baby was keep moving and hiding,
good thing that we got the ultrasound 3 days before that, so at least I already knew that my baby is ok and he/ she was constantly moving around.

when the doctor tried to find the baby's heartbeat today,
we didn't hear anything until almost a minute...my little peanut was playing hide and seek!
but i was overjoy when the doctor finally found my baby's heartbeat,
finally I can hear you, my little one!

my little peanut, do you know that your heart beat sounds so funny?
it's totally different than what I was expected...I though it would be like mine...bum...bum...bum...bum...
but your heart beat sounds like a puppy! wuff...wuff...wuff...wuff...it was so fast!
and the doctor told me that you were keep moving around and kicking,
I'm so happy to know that you are one healthy baby,
I haven't met you just yet, but I know that I love you so much already ;)

MAC Baroque Boudoir

I realize that i haven't post any beauty related entry for a while,
and for you that follow my blog for the beauty content,
here's my latest update on MAC's 2009 holiday collection, Baroque Bourdoir

I have to say that this collection is the prettiest among all other MAC collection that I ever had until now. even the boxes are so mesmerizing
unlike the traditional solid black plastic container,
the lipstick container from this collection were made out of engraved silver metal
lipstick in,
*Treasured: Creamy warm nude beige (Cremesheen)
*Baroque Boudoir: Creamy dark plum (Cremesheen)
without flash
with flash
the lipglosses were even prettier than the lipsticks!!
*The Lap of Luxury: Sheer baby pink with white & pink pearl (Frost)
*D'nouveau: Sheer dusty rose with light pink pearl (Frost)
the real color looks different from their official picture. much prettier.
the best swatch, it show the real color
then i tried to swatched it on my hand, but the lighting made it look so yellow...
the l/g is the same size with MAC Dazzleglas & Cremesheen
did you snap anything from this collection,
which one is your favorite?

2009.12.04 Being an Ordinary Person

My dad once told me,
that the happiest people on earth are those ordinary people.
"how could it be, isn't it great to be extraordinary?" i asked him,
the more you have...the more you want, the greedier you'll become, he explained.
the richer you got, the greater pressure and stress came along,
the more you devoting your time to your possession

being an ordinary person,
not too much possession
not too much pressure,
not too much, just enough,

being an ordinary person,
you appreciate more,
you enjoy more,

being an ordinary person,
you are the happiest person on earth

2009.11.24 The Ugly Duckling

No one ever told me I was pretty when I was a little girl.
All little girls should be told they're pretty, even if they aren't.

-Marylin Monroe-

When i saw this beautiful quote, it reminds me of my own childhood...
it wasn't my parent that give birth to an ugly baby. I was the first born in my family, and my parent told me that i was so cute when i was a baby. fair skin, light hair color, big pairs of eyes, and very chubby...and even that i was almost a hairless baby, people loves to play with me.
but that's changed when i get older...

on my first year of elementary school, my teacher found out that i have problem with my eyes and called my parent to talk it out. i was 6 years old that time, and my eye sight was really horrible that i can't see anything on the blackboard. i remember it was a big class back then. probably a class of 40 kids or more.
I remember i was mortified when my parent told me that they have to take me to the eye doctor. i know i have problem with my eyes, but i'm scared to hear anything from the doctor. I was in denial.
whenever they tried to took me to the doctor, i will hide, scream and cried.
but short story, they took me to the doctor and found out that i was nearsighted.
i remember that by the time they found out about my problem, it was pretty bad already. both eyes were at least -4 (or maybe in other place they call it 400 or something)
then i have to start using eye glasses.

back then, the glasses for -4 was really thick and ugly. i look at the mirror and think...i'm so ugly...and as if it's not bad enough, people made fun of me. my cousins, my classmates...all those mean kids. i feel sad, mad and frustrated. i became gloomy and grumpy.
it was never my decision to choose to have bad eye sight...it was never my decision to use that thick ugly glasses. it just happened. and life must go on.
it wasn't a pleasant memory at all. but whenever i think about that, i thank God that i was strong enough to get through all of that obstacles. it was truly a humbling experience for me.

when i read Monroe's quotation, i was wondering...what if someone told me i was pretty when i feel so ugly back then...maybe i will be a little bit happier and won't be too sad.
i cannot change my own past. but i can make a different in the future,
all little girls should be told that they are pretty, will you do that with me? ;)

2009.11.23 Baby Baby Baby...

this week, I'm entering the 13th week of my pregnancy,
cannot believe that time flies so fast! we found out when i was 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant,
and it's been more than 8 weeks after that.

until this moment, I haven't gain any weight at all,
but my chest area grows so fast that i can't fit to my shirts and jacket anymore!
my body is feel bloated too, my jeans are now taking their long long vacation...haha
luckily i still can squeeze into my sweaters

lately, the baby bump on my belly is starting to get rounder,
and most of the time hubby and I are talking about the baby baby baby...
we just finished watch the movie "The Business of Being Born" on netflick
it's about the controversial argument of home-birth.
interesting documentary!

after the movie, hubby and I were snuggling on our comfy bed, and hubby was rubbing my belly, eventually, he got new hobby now ;p
vampy: "you know what...lately, mostly we talk about the baby baby baby..."
hubby: "ya..." (if you don't know...he doesn't really talk much)
vampy: "cannot believe! time flies so fast...before this Summer, it was all about you and me, you and me, you and me, you and me"
hubby: "mmm...it wasn't. it was about you, you, you, you, you, you, you....and me...sometimes"
vampy: "ha??" ---> cannot believe he said that, but realize that it was kind of true! haha!!
vampy: "...really.....???"

i was laughing so hard! the way he said it was so funny!! i love my hubby so much,
even that sometimes he doesn't talk that much...or sometimes i find myself taking alone because he eventually fell asleep while i was talking!!! haha...but he is a very nice person and I'm happy to be with him ;D

we were laugh so hard when watching this video months ago...do you think that this is the ugly truth?? ;p

2009.08.15 Elephant Village

this was one of the most exciting part of my travel this year!!
after the floating market session, the tour guide took us to the elephant village for an elephant ride ;D

we have to up to the stage in order to climb up to the elephant's back
ancient turtle looking cute with my purse and pink camera case...haha
view from the top...it was so high!!
our elephant was an adult 25 years old female elephant, Tong Gua (the rider told me so)
she was so beautiful, lovely and playful,
we feed her with bananas ;D
the picture were taken by the elephant rider, pretty good eh?
the elephant infront of us apparently was Tong Gua's son
she was holding his tail with her trunk once in a while
we were kinda freaking out a little bit here,
the elephant suddenly went off road, and almost went into the swamp!!
but of course we still posing...haha
good girl, she went back on track ;D
then we crossing the small river,
Tong Gua was splashing water to her son...haha
thank you for the ride, beautiful elephant ;)

2009.11.19 Floating Market

hi all,
i just edit my entry on the floating market,
and somehow it won't appear on the top of the page,
check it out here ---> Floating Market
i hope you guys enjoy the post ;)